Jan 28, 2013

Different Hair Styles: Part of Moving On

I really love my long hair but you know sometimes I have to learn how to let go of my treasured "crowning glory" just to make me feel good and stronger... and to start anew. 

I used to have a long hair with a straight across bangs. This is my all time favorite hairdo. I just love my bangs. 

Then I got tired of maintaining my bangs so I had it side swept. But unexpectedly, crazy things happen in our life, right? So sometimes we had to do some crazy things just to make ourselves feel good just in a while so I decided to experiment with my hair. I think it's what most women do when they wanted to move on. 

I decided to have a Katie Holmes inspired hairdo. At that time, I didn't know why I wanted to cut my hair short. I just wanted to do it. I felt like it would help me feel better and would help in my moving on process. 

But it turned out to be Dora the Explorer. My co-trainings noticed it so most them called me Dora the Exploiter. Hahaha!!! But I loved my hairdo. 

Then I did some changes with my bangs. But when I was feeling down. Feeling stressed and depressed. There's this driving force inside of me that was telling me to have a new hairdo again. Maybe it's part of my moving on process... to feel good and look good. 

So I had my curls!!! Yes, this is my latest hairdo. And I really love it! Feeling Korean lang ang peg! Hahaha!!! I know this feeling I have right now is just temporary and I will surely just laugh about the crazy stuff I've done including my blog post about ehem... 

New hair... 
New life... 
New beginning... chos!!! 

How about you what crazy things did you do when you were moving on?

Jan 25, 2013

A Message to Someone

Sorry will never be enough especially when you intended to hurt someone..

Sure, you are forgiven but let's pretend as if we've never met each other...

At least somehow it could ease the pain you've caused me but it left a scar on my heart...

Jan 24, 2013

Bringing Back the Old Me

I'm such a hoarder, I bought 5 books in a day. Am really excited to read them all.
 I used to love reading books and for no reason (maybe it's because of my busy sked - not really sure), I didn't notice that I stopped doing this favorite hobby of mine. And now I realized that I should bring back my old habit. Reading books help a lot especially when in comes to knowledge and great ideas. 2012 wasn't really a great year for me. I've been through a lot of downs so I wanted to read inspirational books again to boost my self-esteem and confidence. I wanted to get up and be on track again... and erase those negative vibes in my life. 

Whoever had hurt me big time, I should forgive and forget them and start anew. I love this quote a lot. It's very short but meaningful. So instead of emoting, crying and thinking about how they've hurt me, I should work hard to be the best I can be. That way, it will help myself become the woman I don't expect I will be. 

Reading is indeed a priceless wealth... =)

Jan 10, 2013

New Found Friends

During my first few weeks in the hospital, I already met new people who would add some spice in my 4 month training. I didn't expect that I would meet more people in this place that would help me during my moving on/healing period. I didn't expect that my stay at NKTI would be fun and memorable eventhough we're toxic almost everyday.

Jan 6, 2013


Still asking myself why had I let SOMEONE hurt me big time? I know I had my fault but why does he had to abuse my weakness? Why does he had to do this to me when he already knew he will hurt me in the end? Did I hurt him, too? Or he just doesn't love me? Or he is just insensitive? But why did he played with my feelings when he knows he doesn't feel anything for me?


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